Today…will you forgive me?
I have hurt you.
I was reckless with your heart.
I broke a promise.
I forgot something very important to you.
I was self-absorbed.
I said something mean and thoughtless.
I was irresponsible.
I made you my enemy.
But I love you so much. How could I have done any of these things?
I lost my way.
I got confused.
I felt small.
I felt so exposed and vulnerable.
I was afraid you’d be disappointed in me.
I feared your judgement.
I didn’t want you to leave me.
I miss our closeness.
And I didn’t have the awareness, the consciousness or the tools necessary to communicate any of this to you. But at my very core, despite my actions, I just want to connect with you.
I don’t always know how to express this to you, but I hope you feel the truth of it now.
I am not asking you to excuse my behavior; I take responsibility for my actions.
Nor am I looking to justify any of it.
Excusing or justifying or minimizing or dismissing – none of these is forgiving.
I do want you to know, hurting you is never, ever, my conscious intention.
My Essence self seeks only to love us both.
However, when I am vulnerable, my Ego self does its best to avoid pain, even if that means hurting you. In fact, my Ego self looks to make you my enemy as a way to help me feel less vulnerable…
So, please forgive me: know that I am imperfect; understand that I am human; have faith that I am growing and learning with each mistake and mis-step…just like you.
I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
Breathe and remember at the core of each of us is:
I am brilliant;
I am magnificent;
I am a being of Love and Light.
I am here to bring my Essence Self to the world.
The world needs me.
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